Thoughts. Transsexual

You'll not read here about my opinions regarding (trans)sexual stuffs. The only reason is that I have no opinion excepting that, from my point of view, everyone should do exactly what (s)he feels with the only limitation of not hurting the others.

So, let's get a bit into the history of this painting.. Even it's not really my type of novels, I loved "The Picture of Dorian Grey" - Oscar Wilde. Probably most of you read it.. It's about a handsome guy that is painted by a friend, the portrait is wonderful but it is also alive: Dorian remains young&beautiful forever (not really forever - as he dies at a moment:) ), but the painting changes reveiling all the vices and the miserable life of Dorian. The painting is the visual version of his soul, which is not at all so pure and handsome as Dorian's appearance.
I was painting this when a friend asked me "What's with this freak?" and I said "this is Dorian Grey" , more as a joke.

How much of what we are can be really seen when the others are watching us? How much of what we are we accept? How much we understand?
The answer for the 1st question is usually a quick one: "the others see how much we let them see". And this is partially true, we want some people to see more, some people to see less, some people to see nothing. But, (especially) when we want some people to see more, we do a bit strange thing: we let them see what we think they'd like to see, not what we are. Pretty a paradox, but we hide the most from the people we really care about mainly because of a fear to not dissapoint them. (I'll not talk more on this, lots of shrinks already did it)

Well, well.. but what has this painting to do with all this stuff?! Well, the face in this painting is far from being interfluent: the eyes are visibly different, the nose has a color that has nothing to do with the overall face, the ears are disproportionate, the lips might give the impression of smiling but the eyes are sad, etc...
Why all these? (after all, I'm not such a poor painter :) ). Let's imagine this person is in front of a bunch of different people: people he would like to attract, people he hates, people he loves. And he transmits some signals (the ones I was talking about: he lets some people see something, he hides other things, etc). What's the result? A non-human face.
"This never happens", you'd say and you'd be right ;)
But have you seen paintings that grow ugly and old? No, because it never happens :)